Ended my gambling career (for now) on a high note – jackpot handpay to end 2020. My thoughts and ramblings as a now-retired gambler.

Warning: long rambling stories ahead. I am bored and waiting to get through my first day back at work since before Christmas. You’ve been warned!

I’ve been going to the casino pretty regularly for the past few years. Before that, I played occasionally. I exclusively play slots. I view it as a night out – first with friends back when I brought $50 and played penny denom minimum bet spins and prayed to win $20, and then eventually shifting my mindset to playing higher bets and denominations. I hit my first jackpot handpay a couple of years ago. I hit $3700 on a $27 bet on a Geisha machine. I’ve hit a few other jackpots here and there, culminating with my biggest jackpot ever this past summer. I hit $12K on a $50 bet on a Pompeii slot machine.

Well, the long story short is that I have fallen out of love with gambling. I have somehow managed to have a positive ROI on gambling. I track my withdrawls and win on a spreadsheet. To put it bluntly: I have been extremely lucky over the past few years. I know that slots are not a viable way to win money in the long run, so I made a decision a few months ago to “retire” from gambling at the end of 2020.

I went to my local casino last Wednesday. It just so happens when I hit a jackpot that I usually do it within the first half hour or so I’m at the casino. Well, it happened again. After going up $600 or so on another slot machine (I don’t remember the name), I went to one of my most hated/favorite old school slots – Zeus dollar denomination. One of my worst moments in all of gambling was a few years ago. I got a bonus round on the Zeus dollar denomination on max bet of $45 a spin. I was BEYOND excited. I’ve seen Youtube videos where people have won tens of thousands of dollars in that exact scenario. Much to my shock, I won nothing. In that game, you don’t win anything for triggering the bonus. So I actually *lost* $45 on getting the bonus. I cashed out and left immediately.

Anyway, last week I hit a modest $4500. It was exciting…but not as exciting as I thought it should be. I was cool, calm, and…detached. The wins didn’t mean much to me, and the losses mean absolutely nothing. My wife and I are in the EXTREMELY fortunate position that losing $500 or so every week or two at the casino is affordable. I’m not ignorant to how lucky we are to be in this position.

After getting paid out, I played a bit longer. But that hand pay drove home the realization that I had a few months ago: it was time to stop gambling. If I can’t get pumped about a big win like that, and if I’m not even phased a little bit by losing, it’s just not worth gambling any more. I used to go for entertainment, but even now gambling doesn’t provide that much.

As I sit now, I am up roughly $18K over three years of slots. Not bad, but not life changing. Enough that I bought my wife a Burberry and Louis Vuitton handbag on separate occasions. The rest if stashed in savings or in an investment account somewhere. But I am 100% committed to being done. At least for 2021, and probably longer.

If anyone is interested in hearing my thoughts on how to win…I don’t have any insight to share. It’s luck. I got lucky. I know I got lucky. The usual tropes about setting win and loss thresholds is good advice. Sometimes I chased payouts and hit them. Sometimes I chased and lost. But I managed to hit more than miss, and for that I’m lucky. And thankful.

Anyway. I don’t have a major takeaway or anything. I don’t have many people I can talk about this with in my personal life, so I figured I’d share a bit of my story here.

If you do gamble, please do so responsibly. Good luck, and try to have fun. If you’re not having fun, it’s probably not the right way to spend your time or money.

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